ctw: mentions depression and suicide attempt Three years ago I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Episode after one of my few attempts of self-deletion. Two points in regards to that statement: Firstly, the psychiatrist diagnosed the unfortunate event as something caused by a depressive “episode” instead of a “disorder” because, according to her, it wasContinue reading “Annoying News for the Depressed: The “Life Gets Better” People were Right”
Author Archives: Zee Ro
Reconnecting with My Father’s Side of the Family
I visited and reconnected with my Lola Nida and Mama Belle yesterday. I asked Mama’s permission before I did, of course because I wasn’t sure if my reconnecting with Papa’s side of the family would hurt the case that Mama is building against Papa. It’s a long story, but it’s not about that. Lolo Boy,Continue reading “Reconnecting with My Father’s Side of the Family”
Blogging for My Sanity
Creating a blog two years ago was a great idea. Forgetting it ever existed was not. I just remembered recently that I did create a blog in the beginning of the pandemic, and honestly I’m so grateful for past me. I’m surprised to read the blog posts I have here now, I can’t even rememberContinue reading “Blogging for My Sanity”
Fuck Total Lock Down, I’m Not Going Home
i have been gone for a very long time. so much has happened, and i believe you all know about the pandemic that has been currently putting almost everything to a stop. my university, aware of being in a third world country, has officially put a stop on every activity that requires meetings and internetContinue reading “Fuck Total Lock Down, I’m Not Going Home”
Sunsets
When everything else starts to fade with the shadows, and the last sun rays hit the dead leaves among the greens, you begin to understand why Van Gogh clung on to yellow. The sea is calm, and the mountains trace triangles down to the horizon against pink clouds and purple skies. Sunbeams through the leaves,Continue reading “Sunsets”
Trying to Human
The words inside my head are colorswhich makes it hard to speak straightThe sounds spill and hues scatterBut the words fix themselves late I tend to stutter and my words breakEven at times that I feel braveI could see the words inside my headBut not in the way they’re supposed to behave The words insideContinue reading “Trying to Human”
A Filipino Elegy
I stood at the podium, my hands shaking,For there’s little chance to be freed“You’ve been accused of robbery,”The judge said, “How do you plead?” “Your Honor,” I said. “I beg for your timeFor i am on my ownI do not even have a lawyer to defend meFor i was told i already have too muchContinue reading “A Filipino Elegy”
Realize, Redeem, Revolt
In a world where society existsand we’re not supposed to go astrayWhere people tell you to be differentbut once you are, you’re shooed away In a world where you are supposed to fit in,where people are forced to pretendStanding stiff, making no mistakes,patching up masks up to no end But what if we grew tiredContinue reading “Realize, Redeem, Revolt”
What You Don’t Know About Death
I met a little boyHis name is Death Despite popular beliefHe isn’t broody or gloomy or darkDeath has the sweetest smilesWith eyes of brightest spark Despite what most people thinkDeath adores healersHe oversees love and health and lifeFor, he explained, he doesn’t really need believers Death loves the defenders,the mad scientists, and the so calledContinue reading “What You Don’t Know About Death”
It’s 10 pm And IDK WTF This Means
Grey sunrises and dry inkfound in open-ended riversFor crocodile tears and sunny blinkswere the warmth that sent shivers A sly masked in a friendly facewho promised to lend wingsHere then lies the smiles, the trust,and all other broken things And thus we see the fall of onewho struggled for their nameGrey sunrises and dry inkisContinue reading “It’s 10 pm And IDK WTF This Means”
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